There are many things in life that doesn't goes the way you wanted it to go . We doesn't know what the future awits us , and we will never know unless we walk towards it .

Let this be my last May post . June is coming , time flown past real quick . Its almost half a year lerhh . Have no memories of what I've done during the past five months . I only know MYE fly past in the nick of the time . And that also means that EYE will be here very soon . Haishh .
Went to EXPO on Fri and OMGG! can you guess who I've met ? Russell Lee ! The author of TSGS . And of course , I had to grab a copy of TSgs book 20 ! I bought loadds of things at the book fair . OMGG! I just love Popular book fair at EXPO . You should see how many books are there . I almost fainted . Okay , I admit I'm quite a bookworm >.< I've bought 3 books . And some stationary . Meeting Russell Lee was quite creepy . Hehe . As you know , his appearance was rather 'scary' . LOLs . The author of Twinkletoes was there too . But he wasn't as popular as Russell Lee . Just as I've expected . Mum and I had to queue for 2hrs to pay for our merchandise . GAWD ! I almost fainted . 2HRSSS !!! Surprisingly , I managed to survived. Then went to the Food fair . LOLS . SO damn loadds of ppl . We walk one round and we walk out . There are gadgets fair and clothes fair too . Too bad , we can't go into every single one .
Okay , I've become such an anime freak lately . But maybe its because I was so bored , and decided to cathch up all the episodes during this one month . Okay , I gonna start working on my homeworks soon . Going for netball tmr , wonder what are we going to do . Hope coach dun kill~ us >.< Ohyah , I don't think of him that much lerhh , maybe I'm starting to forget him . Hehe , greatzxc . I dunwan to be trap in a love trap ever again ! But then I am not sure about the other one ...

- I'm sure everything will be alright .
VERONICA

Just a short post , sorry , doesn't have picture , cause lazy go find :P Maybe going out later . IWANT GO TO THE EXPO BOOKFAIR ! LOLOLOL . But father dunwan bring me go . SADDD~ ! Myabe going with mum later .Elvan asked me ytd want go watch Shrek mahh . But I was thinking maybe can go out with my parents tmr , and I rejected him . BUT I WANNA WATCH TOO ~ ! Haishh . I can't seems to make up my mind . LOLOL . Ytd went back to school to collect result slip . Can you guess how many subjects I've failed ? LOLOL .... NONE !(Y) Heres my results :

English - C6
Chinese - A2
Maths - B4
Science - B4
History -B4
Literature - B4
D and T - A1
F and N - B4
Art - B3

LOL , not that good luhhs , 2As , 5Bs and 1C . And its english somemore . GAWD ! I get 17 for L1R4 , then 21 for L1R5 . I think can liao larhh . LOLs . But not googd enough . Then ytd went Mac to celebrate with them . Hehe . Last day of school mah . Then aftre that they came my house to do some singing . Was blasting Lady Gaga's songs all the way . Bad Romance , Paparazzi , Just Dance , Telephone , Boy Boy Boy ... Many more . Then they went to see some horror videos and comedies . And we were laughing like hell . LOLOLOLOLOLs . Then they all went back at 6pm . Some leave even earlier . Holidays coming ! Today Vesak day uhh . Gt one month can't see him liao . Saddd ~ ! But nvm , I can sort out my feelings during this one month break (:
Okay maybe I'll edit this post when I come back (: Miss me ~ !

- Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you .
VERONICA

I'm back fromm camp !!!!!! Though its abit late , cause came back at 12 noon today . And I went to sleep the moment I finished facebooking . The camp was rather funn , esp. the mud pond slide ! Ohgosh , its the best manzxc . I went up twice , and it goes WOOOOOOOSH ! SPLASHHHHHHH ! I missed the time when I saw how our group from individualist to sooo close . OMGGGG ! , I really feel that things change over the last three days .

My Group 12 : Remus , Hao Xian , Yie Siang , Jia Teng , Yao De , Fang Yeow , Hasbi , Jerald , Jun Hao , Kenneth , Sheryl , Pooi Keng , Yan Ting , Winnie , Elizabeth , Regine , Anisa , Aqilah , Nasriah , Me ANDD our trainer/instructor : Jia Wei

I would never forget them , they gave me so much to rmb . We had bonded closer during the last three days , working as a team , having fun as a team . But theres also some 'unforgettable' things , ants , moquitoes , the toilet , the tents , the food . The toilet have lizards , spiders etc . Ohgosh , I almost fainted . Then it was so diry too . First day , we were haveing land activities . Exco challenge , outdoor cooking , buildig capslult . It was the most boring out of those three categories . Second day , High elements and water activities . Abseiling , rock climbing , rope challenge . I never play abseiling , then rock climbing , I climb a little bit only , damn hard luhhs . Rope challenge was scary , damn scary . I played the highest one , the broken bridge . Then have to climb all the way up then walk the wooden plank, I was hugging the lock and shouting to Jia Wei all the way down telling him that I can't move , and I dunwan to go on ! Then he tell me to just try . Then until the forth plank , I can't balance and I fell heng Jia Wei is on belay or not I think I'll keep falling . I keep forgetting the command . "Am I on belay ?""Squeeze Checked""Climbing" . HEHE , I rmb now . Water activities , Kayaking , rafting , milo pond slide . We kayak at the sea , and I sat behind . In fact I was scared of water esp. dirty wants . Cause we must walk to the sea then can go in the kayak , but then I kept on screaming when all the water have soak my shoes . Then Jia Wei splash water on me . Okayy , I admit that it was salty . Then I splash him back . :P Then me and Pooi Keng had a hard time controlling the Kayak . Lols . After that , We proceed to rafting . For the very first time , everyone helpout on making the raft . Then I go and try out the raft . Andd the water wad damn cold , andd I can't get out when I want , my leg is stuck in the mud at the water , but thanks to trainer Randy , I manage to get out . But I accidentally step on his leg twice . So sorry ~ Then the slide , I guess no need to explain further lerhh . But then they tricked us to stand close to the plank and then say want take photos , but then want to splash water at us . LOLs .
Campfire night was awesome . For the first time , I enjoyed myseldf very much . Seeing those people perform was great . All those cheers . But my eyes can't seems to get off him , and kept getting distracted . Rmb or cheer ? "We gonna F-F-F-i-g-h-t""We will S-S-S-c-o-r-e""We gonna fight , we gonna score and win this war" ... thats all I can rmb .:P Then after the campfire , Jia Wei called us gather for a debrief . After that he call all the girls to gather , he wanted to memorize all our names . Then we say that we gonna test him on day 3 . Then on day 3 , which means today morning , I asked him whats my name , he finally got it right after three times . Then we went to clean the canvas . It was a hard job manzxc , the sun is so damn bright , and I was perspiring like mad , and feel like getting heatstroke . Then I dunwan clean mahh , cause the ragds very dirty , then Jia Wei was like , ehh I rmb your name liao lehh and he ask me to clean now . I think he finally rmb my name , cause I keep testing him . Lols . I bo liao then when he asked me to do smth , I will ask him whats my name , then he say Veronica then I will go do . LOL . After that we was sitting under the hot sun watching the prize presentation . Then off we go to school ! Say goodbye to my trainer one last time . LOLs , triners rockzxc ! Home Sweet Home !
Stories ends here , but I can't seems to to forget him . :(
Byes .

- Bite my lips .
VERONICA

Last post before I off , and before going to camp . Hey guys , miss me kayys . I am sooo scared of the camp . Heard that night hike , the seniors are going to scare us sia . GAWDD~! How did I get myself into this ? I am sooo worried that I have forgotten things to bring . And I never bring enough things for the camp . And I really hoped that I can be in the same group with my friends ! I DUNWAN RANDOM GROUPINGS ! Lets protest , guys ! Haishh . I can't describe my feelings now . Few more hours to camp . GAWDD~! Ohyah and hoped my brother take care my hotel , restaurant , pets , nightclub well , when I'm not at home . Hoped everything will went well tmr . It still kinda unbelievable that tmr , I'm not coming back home . T.T How I wished I can bring my whole house there ! T.T I rather stay wit Ms Abraham than going there . Okay , I admit that I would be homesick . I can't bear to leave home ! Ohyah , I'm not bringing my phone so , sorry for late replys yeahhs . Okay , I gonna have a good nite sleep tonite , last nite under a air-con room . >.<
Saonara .

- Once upon a time .
VERONICA

Was trying to pack my camp things when mum pissed me off . She was damn unreasonable . I never say a word to her after that . I was like wth , when it was all my bro's fault . F**k sia ! Sorry for the vulgar , but I'm damn pissed off . I hate being 'yuan wang' when I'm innocent ! Forget it . Talking about the camp , I dun look forward AT ALL ! HATED CAMP TO THE COREEE ! I dun unerstand the need of the camp lorhh . Then I rather dun go BIND . Although I'm pending for it ... Just now Regine and her sister came and take the yellow plate ... Lols , its for the camp luhhs . Then proceeded to trading pokemons . LOL . My bro lorhh , keep wanting to trade pokemons with her . But then she have even breed , how earth we can trade . Then I was like dotsss .... Okay about the class tee , if you have receive the msg , it is that Eu Fei have saw an offer on the shirt that I've posted on Facebook 'our group photos' . Then I was asking if you all are okay with the designs ? One cost $10.89 ! Very cheap . But it does not have the names and numbers , so maybe we can go Siglap to do the numbering and names ? But please reply me ASAP on Facebook ! Thanks . Okay , for the camp rite issit the quantity they given does it include the ones we are wearing ? Answer me in my tagboard if you know please . Thanks(:
Okay , guess I'll end here .

- Forgive me , if I'm not that type of girl that you like .
VERONICA

I am tired of smiling , I am tired of controlling , I am tired of everything . Why is it must always be me ? I try to let go , but whenever I wanted to let go , I ended up holding it back again . Why can't I just let go ? Its simple . Because there is no one that I trust . I mean sort of truely trust . I want that kind of person whom I can just simply dump anything to him/her . But maybe , it was all my fault , I just don't trust anyone . I only trust myself . Thats why I'm holding on to everything . I want to let go now , but its too late . I have to move on , clinging on those things with me , maybe some day ... I might be able to be free from all . But when will the day come ? I am still pending on . Nobody know how I feels , nobody know how I suffer . They will never know , because I would never tell . To me , crying is the only thing that I can do now , although I know its pointless . Too stress out that I cry my first night out .

-Trust-

Dancing in the moonlight ,
Making friends with lonely and stress ,
I've lost my trust with your fuss ,
Only that one person could make me happy .

Having a bad night ,
Crying out and tears on my dress ,
And I am still conecerning about us ,
I am falling down with cuppy .

Okkay , maybe you all will ask me whats wrong or whatever , but its just that I'm too stress out . (Bernice - I trust you , but I can't just dump anything to you .)

{Extras}
Won debate today . Thanks to Xinyi , Sherry , Mubeena and Venus . But its the 2nd runner-up but its already not bad lerhh . Then did nth today but only see those videos about kindness . Then do worksheet on it , siannz . Then 2E came our class todayy to watch too . Can you belive ? 80 ppls in one classroom . Gawd ! After that , debate all the wayy . Then ... ermm ... read storybook in class , then go home liao . Wthh , I shouldn't have wasted all my time there . Doing things that not meaningful , they say want to collect the paper in the end never collect . Its like damn waste our time luhhs . WTHH ! Haishh , nvm ... its over . Quite looking forward to tmr's trip , but wondering who should I partner . Mayebe Weishan ? or Bernice ? VERYYY VEXEDD NOWW !
Alright , I'll end here noww .(:

- You + Me = Love
VERONICA

Last minute posting before I offline , so it will be quite short . Went up the stage to collect the medals during morning assembly , was nervous to death . And luckily , it all went right . After that , MYE papers !! Gawdd . All pass luhhs . But Eng , Maths just passed , Chinese and Literature can be better . Worst two papers tmr , I think I gonna fail History . Science arhh , PLEASE PLEASE dun fail meeee ! I will really appreciate your gratitude ! Ponteng today's IT programme , since they all dunwan go . But Amanda so guai , she actually went . Ermm ... maybe thats the reason why ... ahhs , forget it(:
Bubble Tea for dinner !(Y) I was soooo VEXED about what design to use for class tee . The problem is EVERYBODAY HAVE DIFFERENT IDEAS! ERMM...CAN YOU ALL JUST LIKE GO WITH THE MAJORITY ? I REALLY DUNNO WHAT TO DO IF ALL OF YOU HAVE DIFFERENT OPINIONS BUT I WILL TRY MY BEST TO MAKE A PERFECT DESIGN , BUT BEFORE THAT I NEED TO GO FIND THE VENDOR FIRST , CAUSE MAY NOT HAVE THE DESIGN . SO JUST LIVE WITH WHAT WE HAVE FIRST .
Sorry for using caps , but I am just too vexed . Okay , I'll end here .

- What future awaits us .
VERONICA

Went swimming today ! Feels good to touch the water again . And the chemical smell of the pool . Went with Regine , Lester , Rebecca and Mummy . But Mummy and Rebecca never swim , they just watch out for our things . Its been so longgg~~ Swimming Rockzxc ! Luckily , I still rmb how to swim . Went there to prepare for the upcoming camp , cause the canoing is held at the sea , and sikali it capsized . LOL , choy~ Saw Teo Xinyi there , Fengshan senior . Lols , I actually saw her quite familiar when Regine suddenly shake and tell me . We swam for bout 1 and a half hours ? Before we went to Long John Silver to had our breakfast . Went home to shower , then comp , nap , comp , dinner and comping currently .
HAd Japanese Udon for dinner(: Then went around interchange and bought loadds of stuffs . Gawd , and I saw the latest Tennage Mag's cover page is featuring 'You're Beautiful' actor and actress . Jung Yong Hwa !!!(Y) LeeHong Ki !!!(Y) Lols , I 'fong' lerhh . Ahhs , inter-class tmr , most probably disqualified due to not enough ppl . Then have to go and watch the game lorhhs , no choice . Have already promised Bernice that we are going to watch the game tgt :D Then , ohyah , Lala says that we are taking our medals on Tues . Ermm ... quite nervous ? Hope is nt going up on stage derhh . Andd hope that it is a low key event uhh . And think that Tues is giving out test paper liao . Ohmygawd , I'm so damn dunno what to do . Worry about my marks ? But what done has been done , no point crying over a spill milk . (<--Thats what bernice taught me(:)
Okkay , gonna forget everything noww . Byeess~~

- The rain represents how hard I'm crying .
VERONICA

Okay , back to posting . Did not have the chance to post ytd . Though I have been infront of the comp whole day . Those shows really kill my days yeahhs . Have cleared those links that doesn't have relinks and those who have not link me . Only go into some particular links . So if you want me to link back tag in my tagboard , but before that , better link me back first . Haishh , was so bored today . Tuition ... although do nth much , but I've just wasted my 2 hours there . Andd , after that I was comping all the time lerhhs . Crap , CCA is starting and I had a dream on how coach is gonna torture us , that makes me freak out . But I had to perservere ... so yeahh~ . Esther's birthday is coming = Money fly away . Gawdd , I did not know when I become so ... care about money in that way ... Maybe its all because of the economic of the family ? Haishh , I really dunno what to do now . Interclass is coming and as aour team had not enough players and maybe we have to be disqualified , oh great . Those girls is kinda 'selfish' in a way uhh . Forget it , I also did not have the rights to say that . Zzz ... kinda pissed off whenever think of it .
Loadds of ppl are discussing what happening among the girls with me . Andd , I certainly going crazy already . Forget it , I'm not going to think or talk about it anymore . I shall enjoy myself till the end of the June holidays . Andd , suddenly think of the eng hwk , and heng I finished it within minutes . Since I had already done some ...
Okay , dun wish to continue anymore , so byes .

- Thy dancing shoes .
VERONICA

EXAMS FINALLY OVERRRR!! I was so happy that I must scream my stress out noww . Humming the songs of Justin Bieber~~ Okkay , HE ROCKZXC ! I'm totally addicted to stuck in the moment . Its quite unbelievable that I realised I knew quite alot of songs that were sang by him . ALMOST all . Was K-ing songs with Regine todayy . Simone and Xinyi like very extraa . :P No offence . Cause they just sit there and do nth . All because the songs we know they dunno , then the songs they know we dunno . Its really hard to communicate . Then they keep saying want watch horror video , and me and Regine was like we dunwan . HATE it manzxc ! Okkay , I was scare to death after watching the scary car . Xinyi - 你跟我记住 !
Was wondering what should I do tmr . Cause mum is going out with her friends to Parkway , then I dunwan go with all the aunties ... Then all I can do is to stay home with my father and snatch comp with him . Zzz ... MAYBE going to Eu Fei's house if Regine is going ... Haishh ... really dunno what to do after exams are over . Its like we live life so pointless liao , cause we are always pressing for time during the exams peak . LOL . Smth happen just now , see Winson's wall for more information .
Okkay , ending here , be right back for more tmr ! :DD

- Its a big big world .
VERONICA

Okkay , I'm digesting all the notes noww for science . Few hours more beofore the actual Sci MYE . I'm nervous noww . I'm memorizing like siao . "Photosynthesis is the process which green plants in the presence of chlorophyll and light , manufacture glucose/carbohydrates from carbon dioxide and water . During the process , oxygen is given out ." "Diffusion is where particulate of molecules flow from a higher concentration region to a lower concentration region ." "Osmosis is a net movement of molecules ." "Respiration is a process which food molecules transfer into release of energy ." "Digestion is a process which a larger molecule are broken down into a smaller molecule ." "Enzyme are complex proteins that speed up the rate of chemical reaction ." (I sumpa I never read from textbook , I'm just trying to type out what I rmb) Gawdd , its kinda unbelievable I can rmb so much . But there are muchmuch more to rmb . Zzz ... All those are just definitions . >.<
Thinking of going out after exam tmr . But where should I go ? Jia Teng ask me to go to movie . Told him that I broke liao , then he say nvm , Zong Lin will treat derhh . Then he say Zong Lin alway treat then , thenn I say he scam Zong Lin's money . Then he say is Zong Lin want treat him derhh . Then I LOL-ed . Ermm ... Sudden idea struck me ... maybe we can go Tamp to see class T-shirt design ? But too lazyy , Zzz ...
Kayy , going back to my Sci 'WORLD' noww . Sayonara .(:

- Colour my world .
VERONICA

Okayy . I think I should update smth now , if not , there will be no post of May . Siannzxc , CCA starting on Mon lerhh . Dunno how coach will torture us . Zzz ... Andand , one more paper to go ! Jiayouu ! Today maths paper arhh , not much comments about it . Cause is avg larhh , I at first thought will be very difficult derhh lorhh . Heng arhh . Gawdd , I think I gonna fail Hist and Eng liao . I damn gek xim noww . All because of careless mistakes . Arghh , last paper , SCIENCE . Dedication: Dearest Science , I'm going to pass you no matter what . Please be mercy , I still gt a long way to go . Haishhh , Xinyi keep asking me to go for the debating , I think she siao lerhh , can this kind of ppl go ? (referring to myself) Always say wrong things , nervous easily , dunno how to speak up ... Zzz ... Of course I didn't promise her .
Looking forward to post-exam activities , but definately not the camp . I HATE camp infact . But in order to go to BIND , I had no choice ... Gonna get ready to be tortured >.< Trying to make plans for tmr and Fri , since there is no school . But I think tmr going to study . Maybe day out with Pooi Keng they all .
Actually didn't REALLY know tmr gt school mahh lehhs . Mubeena say MAYBE ? Gawdd , I'm goin crazy . Bus-ed home with Regine after exam today . Take 38 with some OTHER ppl . Including Mubeena , ask her and she say no school , but ltr tell Xinyi maybe ? Wthh . VEX-ED ! Okkay , gonna end here(:

- Cause everything is stuck in the moment .
VERONICA

Okkayy . I dunno what went wrong today . Everything seems not right . It was a really really bad day . Firstly , when Me , Jas , Regine and Ximin took that bus in the morning , it went overshot and it did not stop at the bus stop we are supposed to alight that stop that are opposite school . And without stopping , it went to the other stop which is Mun Ho's house there , and we have to walk all the way back . WTHH! Then during chinese I was so suay that my oral was being played out . Zzz... I gt no face liao larhh . DAMN PAISEHH! At that very moment , I REALLY feel like banging the wall if I could . It was like after Eu Fei's one , Heidi say she want to hear mine , then next one is really my one . No choice but only to admit that I AM SUAYY! Maybe because of what Heidi said . And is like so many ppl's recording she die die must choose mine to play? GAWD! Then that evening , mum called me to vacuum the floor , and I pulled out the plug and the wire , the vacuum cleaner suddenly fell down and hit my toes . I was like OUCHH! GAWD . It was damn pain luhhs . Then mum had to vacuum herself in the end . So I said that I realised that I am not cut out for housework . And I JUST REALISED THAT . Okay , overall, I was really suayy today ,I dun think there are any day much suayyer than today .
And I was so troubled just now because Regine Fong . She keep asking me for advice for all her problems . I really think I should become a counsellor liao . I am also dunno what to do for her problems ... Haishh ...
Guess I'll end here noww .

-Dancing in the moonlight .
FONG .